Valeriya has one thing left
Valeriya breathed deeply and fought another wave of nausea. Her swollen and uncomfortable stomach roiling she willed herself not to throw up again. Small beads of sweat formed on her forehead and she could feel the bile rising in her throat, threatening to spill forth uncontrolled.
After a few moments the feeling subsided again and she lay feebly clutching her stomach. She had not bled for too long and she knew exactly what that meant. Despite all her care the worst thing possible had happened.
She glared upward accusingly, “Why have you done this to me? Have I not suffered enough?”
There was of course, no response and anger welled up in her, a fiery rage that smouldered in the pit of her stomach along with an intense hatred for the tiny life that was beginning to grow inside her.
“What did I do to deserve this? Isn’t it enough? I have prayed… gone to mass… I have fasted, done everything I am supposed to do and yet you let this abomination grow inside me… his child. How could you?”
She swung her legs around and carefully stood up, lest the feeling that had miraculously departed for a time, decide to revisit her.
She stood there, her thoughts turning inwards to the small creature that was growing in her belly. It was a parasite feeding from her, sapping her strength and making her ill. His offspring, his spawn and she was forced to be the carrier. He had taken everything now. He had completely claimed her body as his now. Nothing remained that was hers.
Her body was suddenly racked by a spasming pain, and she clutched blindly at her abdomen as the nausea rose up in vicious fury to claim her once again. She cried out in pain and distress, clawing at her stomach, wishing there was some way to remove her affliction.
But there was not and as the pain subsided she began to sob with the abandon of a small child who has lost its parents in the marketplace. She fell to her knees still clutching at her belly, alone in her despair. There was noone who would help her, nobody even cared. She was alone.
She curled up her body into the foetal positon, unthinkingly mimicking the tiny being housed in the warm confines of her womb. She stayed like that, sobbing wretchedly until her throat was hoarse and finally, all of the tears were gone.
After a long while she finally sat up. She may have a new life growing inside her, but her heart felt dead and cold. There was nothing to be done but keeping on going, keep on living this dreg of a life she had been handed.
She carefully rose so as not to disturb her overly sensitive body again and walked over to the mirror.
She studied her reflection for a long moment, noting how her normally pale skin was red and blotchy from crying and her eyes puffy, with trails of dried tears lining her cheeks. She found this morbidly interesting… it was not often that she cried, let alone showed any emotion. She was not used to seeing herself this way.
She carefully dried her tears and cleaned her face with a wet towel. She did not want anyone to see she had been crying, especially Radomir. She remembered that she still had one thing he wanted from her that she would not give him. Her tears.
I was afraid that this would happen. Poor Valeriya. And she has no one she can talk to either.
Poor Valeriya… and that poor child. It isn’t the child’s fault that his father is a #%#&@! I hope she comes around, though I doubt she will.
Poor lady… She might have loved her child anyway, as the one thing out of her marriage that was not totally wrong, but he has messed her up so much.
I’m sure he’ll be pleased. I wonder whether it will make him at all kinder to her? Probably not, but we can hope…
Oh, and let’s hope she doesn’t have a daughter. Not that Radomir having a son to raise is such a good idea either.
I hope that child will bring Valeriya some sort of happiness.
Hi. oh dear I hope that Valeriya won’t do anything dratric to try and get rid of the baby and if she does carry it to term then I kinda hoping it’s a son as if it’s a girl Radomir might beat her too and besides a son might be able to protect his mother more if Radomir doesn’t influince him.
I’m looking forward to your next update.
Keep simming!
See ya
Hi guys… yeah poor old Valeriya is pretty messed up. Sorry for the lack of updates this Easter weekend… I have been all seasons frenzied just wanting to play normal families this weekend (I think this also due to the complete sims withdrawal after not playing for 5 weeks). But I intend to write a post tomorrow… so hopefully there will be an update then.
Devin! Good to see you here. Welcome to Mhalwae =).
Btw… Glad Påsk! Or happy Easter (a little belated once again). I made the mistake of having a birthday party this weekend and now am dying in a flood of candy and chocolate from well-wishers… arg =). Luckily I live with a candy-monster and he is hopefully going to clear up most of it in the next few days =).
Oh, how very sad. I understand that the baby is his…but it’s half hers too. You’d think that would make her feel better! But I’d hate to be in her position either way. Great update Verity, good job making me sad! Hehe.
Under normal circumstances, even if she dislikes her child she’d be deliriously happy (and deliriously nauseous, too, no doubt). But Radomir is so cruel and she’s had so many dreams crushed that she’ll hate her unborn child, if only because it reminds her of Radomir.
If the baby gets born, I’m sure she’ll go hyper-protective on it, but for now . . .
Oh no! It’s not the babies fault! All her hatred for it is not going to be good for that child’s fetal development lady! Sorry…I am a baby saving child care major.
Hopefully she will see her pregnancy as not a curse but an opportunity for something to love and teach to love, and maybe she will have someone that loves her, since she has such a horrible husband.
Oh dear… I hope you won’t be too upset by all the baby badness then Tiana
. Mhalwae is not really shaping up to be the most baby-friendly island. It is going to get better tho… I know all the pregnancys and births for the next two years already 
. Hurray for pregnancy programs!
LOL I’ll be ok, you might get the occassional OH NO NOT THE CHILDREN! from me but other than that I will try to contain myself, especially since I won’t be very nice to the children in my story either. I like to be realistic and unfortunately in reality children aren’t treated so swell, course I’ll have to compliment that reality with a baby saver character.
Yeah Tiana… and life definitely wasn’t easy on the kids when it came to medieval times… ‘specially with child mortality. I am going to get very sad when I have to start with the infant mortality =(. It’s hard enough with all the miscarriages. And all of them are random… I don’t choose who it’s going to happen to… so far it has happened exactly perfectly for my story though.